Am I so hard to Love.....

*AM I SO HARD TO LOVE?* Some wounds don't bleed. They just grow up with you. They hide behind smiles, accomplishments, laughter, and all the little ways we convince the world that we're okay. But somewhere inside, there's still a little child waiting. Waiting for the phone to ring. Waiting for someone to show up. Waiting to be chosen. Waiting to hear the words that should never have needed asking. I love you. And sometimes, no matter how many years pass, that little child never stops wondering what they did wrong. Was I not good enough? Did I ask for too much? Was there something about me that made it so easy to walk away? *Am I really so hard to love?* This song comes from a place that's difficult to put into words. Some of these feelings have lived quietly for a very long time. And maybe that's why making this one hurt more than I expected. Because growing up doesn't always mean healing. Sometimes it just means learning how to carry the things nobody ever came back to fix. If you've ever spent your life trying to earn a love that should have been given freely… If you've ever smiled while something inside you was breaking… If there's still a little piece of you waiting for someone who never came… *This song is for you.* And I hope, wherever you are, you eventually realize something that little child couldn't understand: *You were never hard to love.* You were just asking the wrong people. — Sabian Splash